Holding On While Letting Go

Holding on while letting go. Now that is an oxymoron if I have ever heard one, but that is indeed what God spoke to me the other night. If you have followed my blog at all I guess you may know a little about me. I am a man who identifies with my apostolic faith. I believe in Acts 2:38 with all my heart. Why is this important, well not too long ago I came out of the Charismatic movement(never felt saved or right with the Lord) and felt empty. Now I'm truly filled. I recently became out of work along with hundreds of thousands of other people, and been seeking after answers from God. Because I am yet still flesh, of course frustration has set in and even a little depression. I have so much I want to do for Him before he calls me home, but I haven't had time or $$$ to do any of it(more frustration). I cried out " Lord what do I do?". He answered in His usual manner for me(in my sleep) and said, "Hold on Shawn, but let go of it, it's Mine, I have to be in control." I woke confused and wondering. Hold on...but let go....how can I do both. Well going on with my day I came across a website that was talking about how apostolic thinking is outdated and to reach the lost you must become more "modernized". It really got to me...I left a church because it sought to be like the world. "he that is a friend of the world, is an enemy of God". Then it donned on me, Hold on to the word.....keep to my faith. Let go......God is in control, He will provide......He will make a way for my ministry. My brothers and sisters I hope this some how helps you as it has me. I love you in Jesus' name and pray you hold on, and let go!